I’m having an awful time trying to concentrate on work related material right now. I’ve been having a hard time since yesterday really. Don’t really know what is, could be a handful of things but I wish it would stop. Alas, it has brought me back.
It might be Karla. Who knows? I haven’t logged on to Tumblr since she passed, I’ve pretty much neglected all social networks. Realized I don’t really do too well with deaths. I’m okay for the most part but I guess when people leave, they take a part of me with them. I feel the same way I felt the first time I had my heart broken, and when my uncle passed away. It’s like I forget who I was before, I don’t remember what it felt like to be me. The old me. Before these events took place. And sometimes I don’t think I’ll ever get myself back.
It’s bad enough my best friend isn’t speaking to me. And I don’t even know why. One day, the calls just stopped. People have tried tearing us apart our whole lives. And now I think they’ve finally succeeded. I miss her and wish I had her. It’s almost like I’m losing someone else.
I miss everyone.